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Tuesday, January 1st, 2008
2:01 am
i love my house to death. it scares me, i thinik more and more about wanting to stay in
this town just to stay here and continue exploring and improving it.

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Saturday, June 9th, 2007
12:07 pm
Maybe I will stick to yearly updates with this thing. Here it goes, if I forget anything big, I'll add it later.

Last summer - took academic classes at my mom's college (for free) and worked as a dishwasher at Applebee's while living at home for two months. Made some money, got some credits out of the way, and I had Friday through Sunday off. Not bad at all, and worth the time and energy. Finished classes and quit Applebee's to sound mix a feature film in Asheville. Lived in Asheville for a month, loved it, learned a lot, and got my first paying job afterwards gripping on a movie about Nascar. I'm on the IMDB now.

2nd year of film school - Absolute success. Overall, probably the hardest I've ever worked in my life. I directed a movie I really love during fall term (and another that I don't really love whatsoever, but 4 out of 5 ain't bad), made a lot of new friends, came out of my shell and began enjoying life, became confident. The 10 minute student film I edited was a success. I got into the editing discipline, like I'd aways wanted, though very many people were cut (I think 9 or 10?) I made a friend in the faculty through volunteer work that has hooked me up with a sweet internship this summer working with Pro Tools and Final Cut. Also, I edited a documentary for this faculty member and fell in love with the medium all over again. I used a piece of music from Danny Elfman's first symphony, which our new chancellor had conducted, and when the chancellor brought Danny here to speak for our graduation, I got to meet Danny, get his autograph, and show him the documentary. My friend Harrison was there, with whom I had met Randy Newman the year previous. Next on our list is Mark Mothersbaugh.

This summer - I am living in an incredible 3 story house (4 if you count the basement) with a giant front porch, a 3rd story rooftop balcony, tons of space, and ample party vibe. It was built in the 1910s, and it is gorgeous. I got a new car, finally, so I'm mobile once more (after 2 years without!). I'm looking for a part time job and working as a teacher at NCSA Summer Session until I leave for my internship in August. In my free time I like to paint and dick around on instruments (drums and keyboards, mostly. I found this crazy electronic organ in the attic that I'm quite fond of).

I don't know if that's it or not, but it will have to suffice, cause I don't have much else on my mind at the moment. Later on, interweb people.

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Monday, May 22nd, 2006
3:59 am
I have been working on a 10 page autobiography assignment for my third term screenplay class at NCSA. I've been putting it off and deliberating on topics for weeks, but finally decided that I should mine this, my Livejournal, for inspiration.
I check my friends page almost every day, mostly as a compulsive, stubborn habit, even though I rarely ever comment and definitely don't post. The fact that this journal used to be so important to me now seems laughable.
But I did it, over the course of three days I read every single word of it, and it put me in a very unusual, introspective mood that I haven't visited in ages.
5 years of misdirected emotion. It's incredible. I had forgotten how negative and withdrawn I used to be. I feel like such a drastically different person, but even still feel so connected to that scared, arrogant, isolated teenager. I've realized that my experiences at this school have wildly improved me as a person. I've still got quite a few problems to work out, but I know now that I have the time and resources to do it.
I realize in my second year in film school I need to be more committed and I need to take advantage of my opportunities to the fullest, because really, this is place I was always talking about when I said I needed to be somewhere around engaging, genuine people who understand and care. I'm there, now. And I want to embrace it.

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Tuesday, March 22nd, 2005
1:59 pm
i got stoned yesterday and figured out that boondock saints is an awful, over-hyped, childishly written movie with bad acting and a ridiculous plot.
it seems like getting high mostly revs up my film-bullshit detector.

i was upset when i realized how i felt about boondock saints because
a) i used to really like it, and i'm embarrassed by that now
b) everyone i was watching it with seemed to be enjoying it.


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Sunday, January 16th, 2005
10:20 am
does anyone else feel like the tsunami relief outcry in america is largely the product of latent guilt regarding the state of iraq?

i don't mean to trivialize the situation or belittle any person for their concern, but the grandiosity of media exposure given seems to suggest we're trying to reassure ourselves that we are good people.

before anyone might try to explain to me just how drastic the situation is, realize all i'm pointing out is that any positive action can also bear an ulterior motive.

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Monday, August 30th, 2004
9:13 pm

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Wednesday, July 28th, 2004
3:56 pm
Opening credits:eels - all in a days work
Waking up:The Geraldine Fibbers - Blast Off Baby
Average day:Badly Drawn Boy - Once Around the Block
First date:Superchunk - Pulled Muscle
Falling in love:The Long Winters - Cinnamon
Love scene:Jane Jensen - Illuminate
Fight scene:Dismemberment Plan - What Do You Want Me to Say?
Breaking up:Harvey Danger - Woolly Muffler
Getting back together:The Geraldine Fibbers - You Doo Right
Secret love:All Girl Summer Fun Band - It's There
Life's okay:Juliana Hatfield - Somebody is Waiting for Me
Mental breakdown:Fischerspooner - Natural Disaster
Driving:GWAR - Nitro Burning Funny Bong
Learning a lesson:Kings of Convenience - Failure
Deep thought:Forest for the Trees - You Create the Reason
Flashback:Rilo Kiley - The Good that Won't Come Out of Me
Partying:2 Skinnee J's - Riot Nrrrd
Happy dance:The New Pornographers - All for Spinning You Around
Regreting:harvey danger - the same as being in love
Long night alone:grandaddy - he's simple, he's dumb, he's the pilot
Death scene:eels - dead of winter
Closing credits:Badly Drawn Boy - Pissing in the Wind

Your Life: The Soundtrack brought to you by BZOINK!

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Saturday, July 10th, 2004
11:27 am

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Tuesday, February 24th, 2004
9:42 pm
in 7th grade, when i first began to search out and buy music, i began keeping cds in a 104 disc keeper folder. i lugged this case everywhere i went so that i could have my music with me. so for 4 years, that's where i kept my cds, adding a smaller case in the last year to carry extras.
only last year did i begin to realize that a large number of my discs were skipping and showing obvious label side scuffs. i hadn't been aware of this issue before buying the case, and was pretty pissed off. after i got my ipod and bought a new hard drive, i went about ripping all of my albums so that i could assess the damage.

here's a list of all of my albums, including those i've bought and those i've downloaded. these are all on my ipod and all shared on soulseek. i love to share, so if anything looks interesting to you, pick it up there or let me know so i can hook you up.

16.6 gigabytes of music. all of my albums.Collapse )

so after ripping the albums, i listed all of those which had errors and attempted to download the missing tracks. i have all of the following in full mp3 format, but the discs are damaged.

a list of the damaged albums ranked in three degreesCollapse )

a few albums, though, i haven't been able to find online, so i'm going to have ot buy replacements. if you have any of them, i would appreciate your help in getting these mp3s.

5 albums that i need replacedCollapse )

that's about two fifths of my albums ruined. so in case you didn't know, never keep cds in a sleeve case. it'll ruin your discs.

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Wednesday, January 28th, 2004
7:32 pm
c'mon, mad tv. be funny. just once.

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Tuesday, January 13th, 2004
11:53 pm - Phone Post
282K 1:12
(no transcription available)

phone post number 420 OMG LIKE POT LOL

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7:17 pm - I would prefer not to.
Do you not see the reason for yourself?

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Thursday, January 8th, 2004
6:42 pm
my music store, manifest discs, has been forced out of business.
it will close sometime in february.
my week has been shitty enough without this.

i loved manifest. i stopped shopping online and at major retail stores to shop there exclusively because i loved their business so much. and that's a 30 minute trip.

they carried everything. at least half of my cd collection must have come from them.
and now there won't be any decent music stores. i'll have to buy albums online.
i can't articulate how much this upsets me.
i'll have to gather up some spare allowance, maybe get an advance, and go bargain hunting. maybe i can make a good haul while i still have the chance.

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Thursday, December 25th, 2003
4:33 pm
video of the day:
To describe my personality, I'd say good looking.

the requisite gift list:
20 gig ipod. oh wow.
3 cds: both turin brakes albums and lisa germano's "lullaby for a liquid pig." i saw them used when dad and i were looking for my sister's gift. i made a hint, and he bought them for me. awesome.
chuck palahniuk's book "diary".
chris ware's book "quimby the mouse".
a fucking awesome foam pillow that makes me immediately pass out.
some clothes (i appreciate them, but i'm never thrilled with clothes as a gift. unless there's something special, like a t-shirt with a certain design or something hand-made.)
tons of little knick knacky stocking stuffers.
great food.
my sister's here!

oh. and jesus, apparently.

we're going to see bad santa. have a proper bo crim.

current mood: H-A-R M-A-R SUPERSTAR

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Sunday, December 14th, 2003
1:45 pm - stolen from nicole
hell. i've got time to waste.

a) copy list.
b) bold ones you agree with.
c) replace ones you don't.
so as to not dominate friends' pages...Collapse )

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Monday, December 8th, 2003
8:11 pm

i'm speechless.
apparently this is a pilot for show that has a 6 episode deal with mtv. i have no idea how they can water this down to get it on tv.

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Sunday, November 16th, 2003
11:11 pm - Oh! My life...
because he wanted for me to post an audio entry, indiematt bought me a two month paid account.
so be on the lookout for polls, audio posts, and other crazy privileged user shenanigans. I'm gonna work the hell out of this while i've got it.
the perk i'm looking forward to most is stalking people via the location directory. shamon!

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Sunday, November 9th, 2003
9:04 pm - http://www.whorepresents.com
the kids on malcolm in the middle are starting to look like they're in their twenties.
this show needs to end.
when you're forced to have a new baby in the show, you're out of ideas.

and it's a shame. i love the first few seasons.

by the way.
what the fuck?
is that supposed to be inspirational? handicapable hunters?
i think the message is that if you're for gun control, you must hate the handicapped.
blind archers? quadraplegics with guns?
bad idea.
(don't click if you're an animal lover. sorry, nicole.)

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Thursday, September 4th, 2003
1:04 am
i apologize for always deriding myself when i try to express my problems.
i have this constant paranoia that everyone thinks i'm spouting inane bullshit.
i see these criticicisms coming and i try to neutralize them by negating my own thoughts.
it's not healthy and it probably turns people off to my ideas.

yaknow, it's like that punky brewster episode with the fat cousin who always jokes about her weight. it's exactly like that. thanks, punky. i've learned a valuable lesson.

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Friday, August 22nd, 2003
3:46 pm
i never got to see him live.

rock over london. rock on, chicago.

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